I have been on a healing journey for probably around a year or maybe a bit longer. I realized that a lot of the things that has happened to me in my past was mostly of my own doing. Probably karma. I have learned that because I was hanging on to all the trauma that I have endured in my life and it was projecting into my physical world.
I have worked so hard trying to figure out how to release the hurt, pain, and suffering that I was feeling that I was self sabotaging quite a lot. And I have tried so many mentalities. From a psychologist to hypnotherapy. I have tried group counseling to meditation. I have done it on my own and with professionals. And, I feel like I have grown so much but I feel the itch of change. Maybe it is time for change?
I can feel the change in the air and cut it with a knife. I’m not even sure if I can explain it, really. I’m not sure if it’s boredom or something else. I just feel like I’m in this routine of going to work, coming home, taking off a few days, and then back to work.
Not sure if I should just pick up a new hobby or maybe just give it some time. Don’t get me wrong, on my days off I do have fun, but am I just so used to drama at work, that I’m itching for something to happen? Is this a thing? I guess I have been in “fight or flight” mode so long that when nothing happens it feels wrong? I really enjoy my peace or do I? Honestly, I can’t tell anymore. Maybe I just need to heal more? If anyone has some input it would be much appreciated. I just feel something is going to either change in the air or the bottom is going to fall out?